I lost someone close to me today. This was sent to me.
You will have questions I know.Questions about why and how I could; but I did. I felt it was important I give you a reason; you were always the one that had my best interests at heart.You understood me; sometimes more than I understood myself. I know it’s been six years. I relive the time we drove to the ville over and over in my heart every day and cry, “Where did we go wrong?”You told me you couldn’t love me in the way I needed you to.You hurt me. It is why I have gone now. I need peace.
I want you to be happy.I know you feel you can’t.You are Tantalus forever punished for your good deeds. You will one day find what it is you’re looking for and if you open your heart, you will see there is love in the world.I knew Christi; she was my friend. I never told you how she would tell me how much she loved you and saw her future with you.She told me of the things you did. I know you never moved on. You need to relish the good life has to offer. I see the pain in your heart and the weight you carry with you.Let go of your sorrow.
You will never be mine.I know.You should leave the past and enjoy the beautiful day.I can only guess one day you will love again.She’s going to be fortunate.You’ll live life once again.Grant me this wish.Love again.
You made a promise to Christi to be there no-matter what the future holds.The future has changed and you have fulfilled the promise.She would want you to love again; as would I.
Celebrate your life and please, Love again.
1 thought on “I lost someone close to me Today”
Sometimes the best thing to say is nothing. I can see how that one will get churned in your mind for quite a while. Whatever words there may be to offer you I am sure will not give any comfort. I am thinking of you and will catch you when you come out the other side of those thoughts.